Follicular Tracking~

CD 1 - AF heavy flow.

CD 2 - On Folliova 75 iu, AF heavy flow.. shots xsakit sgt sebab sister nurse yg buat.. 9 am..belah kanan..


CD 3 - On Folliova 75iu, AF not much.. amek shot kat wad sebab hari cuti...sebab diorang cam sibuk shot taken at 9.30 am..sakit sket..belah kanan..


CD 4 - On Folliova 75iu, AF not much..stil amek shot kat ward..at 8.30 am..sakit la jugak..belah kanan..

CD 5 - On Folliova 75 iu, no AF today...shot kat fert clinic...sakit sgttttt..belah kiri kat pinggul..at 9 am



CD 6 - On Folliova 75iu, AF spotting only...ari nie shot setengah jam lepas tuh pon stil rase pedih...adehhh..belah kanan kat pinggang..at 9.30

CD 7 - On Folliova 75 iu, TVS for FT, after TVS, AF come again but not much...shot around 10 am..xsakit sangat..

CD 8 - On Menonys 75 iu, TVS for FT, after TVS, AF spotting only..shot dekat peha...waaa...bengkak la amek menonys ni...adehhh..xleh nak mengiring...belah kiri..at 9.30

here's the result for FT on CD 7:

Current problem of patient:

nulliparous, subfert 3 yrs, underwent lap cystectomy with dye insufflation, intraop findings endometriosis stage 2-3, dye spillage bilateral tube, underwent COH with clomid, IUIx2 - failed despite easy, planned for 3rd IUI

Ultrasound examination:

left side 12 x 10, 10 x 9 (2), 8 x 8
right side small 5 x 4
et 8.2 c fluid collection

*all in mm

Management:

Continue folliova 75iu till CD 9 daily dose, to do TVS FT on CD 9 at 10-11 a.m, if size still less than 20mm to continue 75iu and come back on CD 12 for FT, if CD 9 more than 20mm, to give hcg 10000 unit im on CD 10 nite 8.30 - 9 p.m in ward and come for IUI on CD 12 morning then support post IUI with duphaston.

Cost so far - RM 420 + RM 210 (medicine only) = RM 630

CD 9 jatuh pada hari raya nie...so xdapat la nak balik kg..pagi tu ade TVS FT, skali ngan injection lg...so kalo ok telor 20mm akan inject sabtu malam untuk pecah telor...kalo x proceed lg folliova..harap sangat2 xpayah tambah ubat lagi..esok je nie penentuan...cepat la besar ovum2 ku sayang...especially belah kanan tuh...ntah kenapa selalu sgt xresponsive..pdhal folikel belah kanan la yg paling penting untuk matang...

hai anak..demi kamu ibu sanggup sakit kena cucuk...walaupon aku sebenarnye fobia sgt ngan jarum dulu..nak amek darah xsempat masuk jarum pon leh pengsan...tapi sejak proceed IUI...dah boleh inject sendiri lagi...caya tak...huhu..walapon sakit...sentiasa ckp kat minda sendiri...xsakit...sket je...jap lagi hilang...hahaha...

selingan: susah ati sket...dah lama resign tp macam2 alasan diorang xnak bayar outstanding KWSP and salary aku...rase mcm pengemis plak...padahal itu duit titik peluh aku...boleyyy???dah no idea nak buat camne...i know he's @#%&^$ but up to this extent???...how do you think i can be considerate anymore?my patience has limit...at least reply me something...if your time so super precious...mine too....and the time consume for thinking of you make my health worse u know...

last attempt...3rd IUI..lets the cycle begin~

Today is CD4, already 3 days on folliova 75iu shots..still have another 3 shots..everyday going back and forth to hosp for injection..really hope this cycle will workout BFP...chaiyork...hoping on CD7 the TVS will found a few great eggs for IUI  (or else, increase doses means double the $$$)..sometimes I just wonder why in LPPKN doc needs 3 mature egg before proceeds with IUI but I just had 1 but my doc still proceed...they used up all my chances then..huhu..this few days, really crazily looking into diet and supplements...Ya Allah...please please please permudahkan rezki kami untuk dapat zuriat yang soleh...

Doctors' appointment~

Last tuesday ada appointment ngan Prof & Dr Liza...schedule for 3rd IUI (last attempt)..kalo xlepas jugak tahun depan kena proceed IVF..ini pon doc dah tanye ade sakit2 x?sebab die takot endo grow back and being worst...aku ckp xde..kdg2 je...tp xde la sakit terok pon..

Disebabkan 2 attempt lepas using clomid telor xnak berkembang dengan jayanya...so this time start CD 2 kena amek folliova 75iu for 6 days..so tiap ari kena g hosp untuk injection CD2-CD7 (risau bertembung ngn raya haji je - sah2 kena inject sendiri nanti)...harga folliova 1 injection 75iu RM70, kalo lepas 6 injection x berkembang...increase double dose...so double the price...x expect lgsung cost 3rd IUI nie kan mendadak cam nie...sebelum nie amek clomid ngan gonal f cuma bayar RM250 je..(doctor kate stock gonal f spital dah abes dat y kena beli ubat dr luar...so bayaran pon mahal la)..so mmg dah spare la duit tuh...yg lain cdgnyer nak beli other vitamins...tapi bila ade revision dlm cost nie...hrmmm bnyk nak kena skip...

Ari nie first day being full time housewifey...huhu...so ngah planning schedule makan and ubat2 and vitamins...kalo nie xmo stress2...nak jaga makan... nak jaga tido...jg solat jugak..harap sgt usaha kali nie berbaloi....harap sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt.....and harap jugak bos ofis lama (cm lama benor) akan bayar tunggakan kwsp, socso, claim and gaji aku secepatnyer sebelum treatment...harap aku xkan stress sebab die...hahahaha...

Good news for others~

Hari nie call my beloved mommy...bgtau adik aku yg kawen bulan 6 ari tuh dah preggy 2 bulan....happy for her...it is..but for TTCian like me good news for other in term of pregnancy make us feel bitter for our condition...how we wish we were also being at same shoes...but after all it's about her, i'm happy for that...at least my parent can have grandchildren soon...

it just that...when my hubby said...sy kesiankan awak bila dengar berita macam nie...waktu tu rase mmg nak luruh jantung..i'm so lucky having him instead of other for being my husband...he's such an understanding, caring and loving husband...he always complete & comfort me whenever i'm at fragile state..but ya the spotlight would still goes to me as people will keep asking questions why we cant conceive...suggesting this product..that product..insisting we buy this and that...i do understand their concern..but they just dont understand the underlying problem...even if i explained...they still dont get it...still suggesting this and that where some of it just cause more inflammation for my endo...

hari nie perut belah kiri rasa sakit plak...rase dah lepas waktu subur...xtau nape ...dah dapat date baru untuk appointment doc..tp diorang suh husband pegi jugak...aiyooo...hubby ku busy...hope die leh pegi la kejap...but tau je la gomen hosp...pegi awal pon lum tentu dpt awal...lg2 aku mmg xde amek no ape cam orang len...kena tunggu doc jugak...9 oct nie next appointment...looking forward for that...huhu...harap this last treatment boleh bagi gud news...tp xnak la terlalu berharap...kang hampa plak...huhu..

well....aku dah tender resignation (well my bos wud be damn happy coz die mmg xsuka aku cuti utk treatment)...next week last keje...sebab aku target next period 20hb so boleh la in the mean time try to fit my body for treatment...ngah nak setup jadual harian untuk sebulan tuh...be discipline ok!(peringatan utk diri sendiri)...kali nie like it or not kena disiplin kan diri...jadual xcomplete lagi...next week mesti siapkan jugak...huhu..

appointment being cancelled!

just received call from hosp...sepatutnyer appt esok pg...tp akan ditunda maybe 23hb oct coz untuk review both doc kena ade...and die nak jumpe husband skali...haishhh...maknenyer IUI ditunda lagi la...estimate date utk next period 20 oct...kalau appointment 23hb ...dec la jawabnyer next iui nie..a bit disappointed ..a bit ker?rase cam ngah frust giler jek nie..

end of sept, just received news from a fren of mine, his wife also same like me got endo & hydrosalphinx, but her hydrosalphinx are worsening and affect both the tube now... feels sorry for them but at the same time i'm scared that mine will get worse too...

rasenyer bila dah dengar macam2 rase nak betul2 jg makan utk elakkan inflammation getting worse.. tp certain foods and drink sgt menduga perasaan...i just cant resist it...huhu...but from last time, i have cut so many things in my daily diet..no caffeine, no soft drink, limit dairy product and red meats, no soy, no drinking (of coz la), no smoking (xpenah terase nak cuba pon)...but was it enuf??

tapi ape yg paling aku kecewa skang...aku nak benti and fokus pada treatment and i think i had enuf with this co...9 month working...and still not confirm...coz xnak naikkan gaji aku...coz nak byr epf n sosco pon xde duit katenyer...so how....shall i stay??shall i just resign and let fate decide my rezki...what shall i do then...what shall i decide?????